oh man, i had 3 panic attacks and a big emotional upheaval today. something's wrong. Did i do sth bad, maybe it's retribution.
the first panic attack came when i discovered (during geog) that my video clip in my jap ppt wasn't working. i was frantic, trying my best to download it again and again. all through CLE, i was thinking about it and my pathetic options: 1. Call home for my brother (if he's there) and ask him to send the clip to me. (which i dun really want to cuz that would mean giving him my password). 2. Spend $20 taking a taxi home and to MOELC. 3.Ask my jap teacher for an extentsion (highly impossible). 4. Do without it. (NO!) none of them really favoured though. So went through that bunch of leaders durin CLE and i still don't know who Maria O-sth is. :) and then she went way over her lesson time, making sure we knew about those leaders. and after that, Mr Tan had to give back not 1, not 2 but 3 exam papers at once. doesn't he know the level of depression that will send us to? so then we took even more time to give out the papers, and i desperately needed to go to make calls. when we finally reached the canteen, i called home. my brother would only be home at 5. i guess it kinda triggered the second panic attack, with all the rushing down frm upstairs and the results. when i called my dad, i was already on the verge of tears, i could feel them in my eyes. but after my dad told me he would try, i calmed down and went to eat ice-cream with the rest. that was my lunch.
but my dad succeeded. after RS, i ran to the library to check my email and there it was! YAY, i <3 <3 <3 you daddy!! so yay, i put it in my ppt and checked that it worked on 3 different coms b4 i left.
3rd panic attack came when i had boarded the MOELC bus. i had sat down when i realised i didn't have my cue cards, the ones i depend on for show and tell. i panicked and started searching through my stuff and thought that i had dropped them on the way. i was about to rush off the bus when erika pulled them out. i had left it on the canteen table.
oh and other than the attacks, i fell off a chair this morning and got 2 scratches and a bruise, forgot to get my change from the bookshop auntie (yilin told me) and dropped my wallet like a million times. it's just not my day. Thanks to penny and yilin and joan and huiqi for listening to me. i love all of u :) heh tomorrow should be better.